“Looking back on my life, the times where I’ve gone through my hardest trials and the times that I have been mentally and emotionally exhausted, have been my conversion stories. Each time where I have been so close to the edge of giving up, another conversion story happens in my life. Everytime I don’t feel like I have the strength to continue on my path, I am redirected my the Lord on a new and better path, and given more strength.
The phrase “let God prevail” has been a really prevalent phrase in my life for the past couple of years. I’ve come to realize that the most important word in that phrase is the word “let.” Letting Him prevail, is the thought and decision that God is in charge. Letting God prevail is choosing to stop fighting for what we think is best for us, and realizing we are supposed to align our will with God’s, not have Him align His will with ours.
I’ve always been really stubborn and think that I know best, especially with God. I can think that I know what I will benefit from, and that I know what’s better for me. Whatever trial I went through, I used to pray to have God take it away from me “because I know better”. But looking back in my life, everything I have ever gone through, every trial that I have ever faced, whenever I felt emotionally paralyzed, every time I was too weak to continue on my own so all I could do was fall on my knees and cry out to God, has helped me come to learn that I can find strength in my Savior when I am running out of my own strength.
I was told when I was really struggling with a trial that, “God doesn’t send us trials. But he allows us to go through them when He knows it will be for our beefit”. I am NOW able to look back on my life now and see that “Letting God prevail” is choosing everyday to align my will with God’s every single day. And choosing to see trials as “how is this going to be for my benefit”. I’ve come to realize for myself that when I am too weak to continue on my own, I can ALWAYS rely on the strength of the Savior. I’ve come to realize that every time I was about to give up and when I didn’t understand why I was going through certain things… those have been my conversion stories. Every time without fail, I find Jesus Christ again and again, standing besides me with open arms.”
I Am Converted 